Part 12...
I now lyed in my bed, in full pain. I couldn't stand it, but I didn't cry out. To let them hear my cry would tell them that I was breaking, and that they would win. I held the pain in, I would never give in all the way. I was taught well by Master Splinter, and I will not let those teachings fail me now. It was my hardest fight, but I had to face it. I had to face my own anger.
"You fought well today." I looked up to see Mark and Peter standing in my room. "A little to well, Mokeshan will be feeling pain for weeks, and if you do to good tomorrow they will keep you as long as they can. For all you know your full life."
"But if I don't fight my hardest, Shredder wont have pity on me."
"Leo, you're in no shape to take out the Shredder."
"Oh, yea Peter... what shape should I be in, a shaper."
"Leo, don't let that anger cloud your mind now, you know what I mean." I felt bad about what I just said.
"I'm sorry Peter. I'm just taking this hard. I don't know what to do."
"You know, you might have an idea there though Leo."
"What do you mean? I can't change my form."
"You think us Shapers can't help you." Peter walked towards me. "Tomorrow we will be here in the morning."
"You can't do this fight for me, Killer will find out."
"We're not going to do the fight for you. You'll see once we return." Peter and Mark shaped away. I watched, than felt the pain in my shell once more. I had to get my mind off of the fact that Shredder might just kill me tomorrow and of all the pain I was feeling. This is the worst fight I've ever taken up, the worse time in my life.. the biggest question that ate into me was... is Mikey alive?
I got up out of the bed. I needed to eat, and if I lyed down all day long I would get stiff and the fight would be no good for me. I had to be lose, I had to be ready to fight. I wrapped up my wounds and went to check in on Mokeshan. By this time she was up and lying in bed.
"How are you?" I asked as I walked in. She looked at me and smiled.
"I could be better, you know you broke my arm."
"I know, and I'm sorry about that." I looked down... than looked at the smile on her face. "But why are you happy?"
"I'm not going to be a W for the rest of my life. I failed their test, I will have my own life again." I knew it was right for Mokeshan to get out of this, she had a normal life before, but than it hit me. The worse thought that ever came to my mind, a pain I don't want to face.
"I'm glad to know you're doing better. Make sure you let me know, once you're all the way better, so we could get together again.. you know a little pizza and some work out in the DoJo." I smiled.
"As long as you don't die in the morning Leo."
"I promise, I wont do that." I turned and walked out, and than bumped into Terror.
"That's right Leo.. You wont do that!"
"What do you mean?"
"Let's put it this way Turtle, if you die with those blades on your arms, you will be a W forever. The blades will make it so you have no chance of going to heaven, meaning you'll go to hell. And if you go to hell, since my dad is the devil's pet.. we will have you forever. So if you even think of letting the Shredder kill you tomorrow, think about being a W forever." Terror turned and walked off. For some reason he wanted me to win, he wanted me to be the one taken, but why?
I than thought of what came to my head while talking to Mokeshan. It went through my head, of a reason I should try and taking this part of first command, besides the pain. It hit me, that no matter where I go, I'm a freak, the only family I have are my brothers and Master Splinter. We'll never be able to live a normal life, but Mokeshan and Shredder were both humans, even though they have been evil for years, the Shapers said they both had a chance. Mokeshan, I could see she could be free easy, but Shredder would take time. These thoughts ate at me, I couldn't just give in though. I could never lose my life to evil, to do that will be to really dishonor myself. I will fight the Shredder, but only as much as I have to... to stay alive.
I walked pass the DoJo and peaked in. Shredder was working out hard, hopefully wearing himself out, but I douth that, he wants me dead. I could feel his anger from the hall.
"DAMN TURTLE!" Shredder said as he hit a punching bag, cutting it into three. "THIS WILL TEACH YOU FOR SAYING IT WAS NAGI'S FAULT!!!" He than hit another punching bag, this time with out his blades out, it looked as if he took all the wind of it out, with one punch. I felt myself get sick on the inside, I was already wounded by Mokeshan, and I shouldn't even be walking. "ALL THOSE YEARS YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN AFTER ME! FOR JUST TWO KILLINGS, WELL NOW IT'S YOUR TURN!!! YOU WONT LIVE TO FACE ANOTHER DAY WHEN I'M DONE!!!" He didn't know I was watching, but he really did have a lot of anger, and he was planning to take it out on me. I knew it was going to be a long night.
I walked back to my room, without a word. I sat down and started to take better care of my wounds, I knew if I didn't this fight may even, as hard as it sounds, get worse. The Shredder was now the last of my cares, I had to make sure I don't die... I don't want to be a W for ever. I started to work with using my blades, but I worked in my room, because I didn't want Shredder to see me. I feared the fight, but I didn't want to show it. If I broke out with any fear or anger, Killer would know that these blades are working on me. I could feel it breaking through, I couldn't hold all this anger back, but I was at least going to try.
My blades started to burn, it could feel the fear in me. I felt as if the blades themself were alive, and I could feel them trying to take me out. It was a battle on the inside of me, if I could keep control or if I was not as good a warrior as I think. The blades was a hard fight, the problem was these blades knew my angers and my fears, and it was making it all come forward. Stuff like the thought of Mikey being either near death or dead, and I didn't know, would keep me up. And if Master Splinter still had trust in me, the face of Donatello losing belief of getting me back. And worse of all, the anger of Raphael, biting and chewing at me. It was all those thoughts that I couldn't place at the back of my mind no matter how hard I tried.
After a hard work out, I took a fast shower. To try to get a good night sleep. I lied down, still with lots of hard thoughts, tearing at me. I got up and grabbed a book. I've always loved mystery stories. So I grabbed "The Cat Who Sniffed Glue" Once I started reading it, my mind went off of my troubles, it was around the middle of act 3 when I fell a sleep, without a thought in my mind, beside what's going to happen with Koko and Yum yum.
The next morning I woke up. It didn't hit me at first that this was the day of the fight. No the first thought on my mind was the book. I picked it up and started to read more. Than Blades walked in my room.
"Oh good you're up Leo." Blades said walking over to me. "You got two hours before the fight." Oh no, he said it, he brought the facts of real life to my face again. Today was the fight, the day I didn't want to come, because I don't want to win this fight and I don't want to lose.
"Thank you Blades, I didn't realize the time fly." I stood up and walked to the door. I knew I had to get a good breakfast in me, or I would feel it through out the fight, but nothing to strong that would make my me sick in any way. Just a roll and a glace of milk would do. After getting that little bit of food in me, I got a 2 liter of Rock 'n Rye and walked to the DoJo. I heard Terror and Shredder talking inside.
"Don't kill that Turtle! If you kill Leo, Shredder, than it's going to be you in trouble. I don't care if you get an opening for a kill, I don't want the Turtle dead, or even near dead. If you win the fight, than get him down, and that's it!"
"You don't understand! My brother will not be at rest till ALL THE ONES THAT FIGHT FOR YOSHI IS GONE!!!!!"
"Shredder, your brother is well at rest. He's been dead for years. You killed his murder, that's all you had to do." Shredder walked towards Terror, his eyes went pure evil, I could tell from across the room, those blades had control.
"If that Turtle falls in front of me, Than I'LL TELL YOU! HE WONT BE ALIVE!!! I promise that!" Shredder than walked over to the punching bag. I took a drink from my Rock n'Rye thinking how Mikey used to have this drink with his pizza at our Bday party, he called it his lucky drink. Well to day I hope this drink's luck rubs off on me, like it did Mikey.
"I'm here." I said as I walked in. "Now lets get this over with." Shredder smiled, Terror went to get his dad.
"I've been waiting for this, Shell Back!" Shredder walked up to me. "We end our fight today, for you wont be standing at the end." Shredder smiled, he was so sure of himself, he thought there was no way I could win. The blades burned me, I felt like punching him right there, but I held it back.
"Shredder, this fight has nothing to do with our past, think what would happen if you win."
"Are you saying you want to win?" Shredder stopped and looked at me, as if he was going to fall over laughing, even at the thought of me winning him. That question pass through my head, I looked down.
"No Shredder, I don't want to win. And I don't want to die."
"Well it's one or the other Shell Back!" I looked up at him, dead in the eyes. I saw the evil in him, more than I've ever seen in him before.
"Than I guess I'll have to win." Shredder fell over laughing. Than he looked up at me.
"Oh, by the way.." he said, still you could hear the laughter in his voice. "If you do win..." he started laughing again, he looked at me once more. "Make sure you finish me off." I looked at the Shredder, as he still laughed, he must not have known what Terror told me, he thinks death is freedom. Just than Killer and Terror walked up, Mokeshan and Blades followed.
"You two ready?" Killer asked as he took a seat to watch the fight. I walked forward and bowed to him, as a true ninja should, Shredder just stood there.
"Hi, we're ready." Killer smiled
"Good, than let the fights begin, the one that comes out standing is the winner. No killing!" I turned and faced Shredder. It was time for our fight, I didn't want to fight, I was still in pain from fighting Mokeshan. Shredder in the other hand is ok.
"You ready to die Turtle" Shredder said with a smile as we bowed towards each other.
"I'm ready for you Shredder, and I wont die."
"Begin now!" Killer said, picking up a bag of pop corn, like if he's going to watch a movie, and he didn't care who won.
Shredder came right at me, his blades shinning as they came down across my face. I wasn't ready for that, as I felt it cut, it just missed my eyes. He went to do it again, this time I got my blades up blocking it. As his blades hit mine, I felt a shape pain. Using my other hand I hit him, using my blades, cutting him in the gut.. Shredder didn't move, as if the pain didn't bother him, he was going to kill me if it was the last thing he did. My life was sealed.. I was to be killed by the Shredder, I felt sick. I didn't want to be here.
I saw how close we were, and it gave me an idea, I grabbed his left arm with my right hand, than turned around, getting Shredder on my shell, it took but few seconds before I had Shredder flying across the room. Shredder got up right off the bat, and it looked like he was able to just shake the pain off. I watched him charge me, than I felt the blood coming down over my eyes. I moved out of the way of Shredder just in time, than wiped the blood from my eyes. The blades started to burn, they wanted me to be like Shredder and not think before moving, but I wasn't going to let that happen. I jumped Geri Shredder from behind, he fell to the ground gain. I jumped on top of him, holding my blade to his throat. Before I could make another move, Shredder threw me off of him. I landing against a wall, I felt as if it just cracked the back of my shell. Shredder stood over me, as I tried to recover. Seeing him standing there, I knew he was going to try and kill me.
Forgetting the pain I jumped to my feet. I geri Shredder in the face. I saw his head go back wards, but he was still able to stand his ground. I brought my blades out and cut into his right arm. He than cut me in the same place that Raph's sais went in. I felt the pain of the old wound opening. I started to feel like I was going to fall to the ground, I couldn't stand on my feet. I was losing to much blood. But if Shredder won, I would be dead. I held the pain inside. Than I hit Shredder to the ground. Landing on top of him, the blades have taken over, I didn't care if Shredder lived anymore, I just cared that I didn't die.
I punched Shredder real hard in the face, knocking him out, than I brought my blades up to bring them into him, finishing him off. Can I do this, I tried to pull back, but I couldn't.. I hated the Shredder so much, I just wanted him dead.