Part 5,

I sat looking down, I felt the pain of losing my brothers, and wonder if it was going to be that way. Am I going to be trapped here and never see my brothers again besides fighting them. It wasn't to long before the Shredder came in and looked at me.

"Why did you take me back? Why didn't you leave me for the cops?" He asked sitting near me.

"Because, I'm not one to leave anyone, friend or foe. Besides I saw you were in pain, my brothers were not easy on you."

"You were never easy on me?"

"Hey, if I'm stuck working with you, I'm not going to let you fall." I really didn't want to talk about it, because deep down I knew how much I hated the Shredder, but right now he kind of reminded me of Mikey and Raph put into one. The Shredder got up and walked towards the door. He looked back at me.

"Thank you for not leaving me for the cops." He said, than he was gone. I felt very alone, and didn't want to ever go out to work for Terror again. I wanted free. The next day Terror came in my room. I could tell he knew what happened yesterday and he didn't look happy.

"You left Shredder on his own yesterday. You let him fight alone. I send two of you out so you guys wouldn't have to fight alone." Terror said standing over me. I looked at him, seeing the stone look in his eyes I felt a deep fear, I felt as if he was going to hurt me.

"I couldn't fight my brothers. I'll never be able to live it up if anything ever happened to them." I than turned from Terror, I was ready for the pain. But nothing happened, I looked back at him, he had an grin across his face, but it was pure evil. I could tell he was up to something and it had something to do with my brothers. Terror left the room, I got up and went to the window. Where was that kid Turtle when I needed him.

Later Terror sent Shredder and I on another trip out. This time it was a bank, our job, which was hard for me to believe was to go in and kill everyone in the bank, not to leave on person alive and they said not to take any money. I couldn't do this one, it was Shredder's turn and I even reminded him as we were going. I saw in Shredder's eyes that he too did now want to do this, he might be evil, but he had points, even if they were dumb, for everything he did. Shredder wasn't one to just go out and kill.

"Hands up everyone!!!" Shredder said as he ran into the bank. He had a gun with him, I carried my sword. The ppl in the bank did as told, you could tell some wanted to fight back, but everyone knew not to mess with the W's. Shredder aimed the gun at a little girl holding her mom's hand. I turned my head and closed my eyes, waiting to hear the shot. But instade I heard another noise, it was the sound of the gun being cut into two. I turned to see Raphael standing there. I went to back out of sight, but hit right into Donatello. I turned to look at Don.

"You're right Raph, he does look a lot like Leonardo." Donatello said holding his bo out at me. I backed away I couldn't fight Don, I had to get out of here. Shredder looked at me, you could tell there was a smile under that mask of his, for even if I did help him, Shredder liked to see me in pain and in trouble. I knew I was going to get no help from him.

"I don't want to fight you Don." I said looking for away out of this.

"Oh please, don't tell me you're even going to act like you're our Leo! Raph saw those blades come out of your arm, your not no mutant Turtle, you're something else." Donatello went to bring his bo down upon my head, I used my swords as I Jodan Uke stopping the bo from hitting me. "But boy do you look like Leonardo."

"Donny it's me! And I don't want to fight you! Please stop this!" Don came at me again, this time with a round house Geri, followed with a hook Geri to the face. Than a noise came to my Migi, I turned to see a end of a nunchuck hit me hard in the face. I felt blood start to come down my face, and looked up to see Michaelangelo with his nunchucks close in hand. "Mikey, don't!" I Kiai as the chucks came flying back into my face. I fell hard to the ground. Than I felt a Geri in my Hidari Nawa. It came from Donny. I got back up, trying hard not to Zuki them with all that they were doing to me.

"Dude, he looks to much like Leo. I can't hit him again Donny." Mikey said looking at me.

"I know he looks a lot like Leo, but we have to think, he's not Leo. We have to stop him, before he gives us Turtles a bad name." Donatello brought his bo down towards me, I had no choice but to defend myself. They would kill me if they had the chance. "Where is Leonardo, you clone!!!" Donatello Kiai at me.

"I am no clone! I am Leonardo!!!" I Kiai with another uke stopping Don's bo from hitting my Hidari Nawa again. It was already in pain there. "I need your help Donny! I don't want to fight you!!" Donatello didn't listen to me, he would never believe that I would be working with the bad guys. Bringing his bo down onto the Ushiro of my head. I fell to the ground. I opened my eyes and looked Don in the eyes. "It's me Donn......"

When I woke up I was back at W HQ. Shredder was sitting over me. "Now you know how it feels to be hurt by you freaks." Shredder said

"What happened? Are my brothers ok?" I asked sitting up seeing Shredder looking ok.

"We got back up after you were taken out, more W kids came and helped us. We were saved. Your brothers almost made off with you, but we got you back. Trust me, your brothers will not listen to you. The W's are all you have now." Shredder got up and left me. I fell back into my bed, I knew what he said was so far coming true, my brothers would never believe me, not as long as I'm working with the Shredder.

In my heart I felt a break, a deep pain. My head started to hurt, as if nothing could heal it. I was alone, and alone I will be. Than remembered the song Mikey wrote for that tour that went around of us. It was called Follow Your Heart. Mikey wrote the song one time when he was feeling down and when we talked about letting ppl go around in costumes of us signing he said that song had to be played in it, somehow to fit it in. I sat back hearing it go through my head. I couldn't stop hearing it. The part about...

'when it feels like every way that you turn there's faces made of stone'

I felt that, for I was in a place of evil, and when I looked into Don's face it was a stone cold look he had looking at me.

'He can try anything to tear us apart but there's one thing that's still clear, that there's no way that he'll get inside of our hearts just remember that we're still here'

I felt this, for Terror made me do all these wrong things, but I was still there, I saw what I was doing, and I still wanted to be free.

'Sometimes it seems like you got no choice that deep inside you, you lost your voice'

No matter what I said, my brothers looked pass me. I didn't feel like I had a voice. The song just made perfect since to me, it was as if, it was written for me. Just than I looked up to see a face smily at me, it was the kid Turtle.

"but in the quiet you know that it's been there from the start. You have to follow your heart Leo." The kid said walking towards me. "Leo, I know things went wrong for you, but you have to do this on your own. You must get your brothers to believe in you, and to do this you must believe in yourself."

"Why can't you help me? Why can't you tell them what's going on?"

"They wouldn't believe me, they would think that I was one of the W's trying to fool them, and you would have less hope getting away. I don't really know you or your brothers. They need to hear it from someone they should be able to trust, and they should trust you Leonardo. As my brother tells me, you Turtles are heros and would always work together." At that point I looked up, the kid was gone. But I knew the voice, it was the voice of Mark, the kid I met back at the W HQ in New York. But how was it him, and why did he look like a Turtle. I ran to the window and saw he was gone.

Mark was right, I had to get through to my brothers but how. I was locked up here and when I was out, I was doing crime. I went to the DoJo and started to work out, thinking of what Mark said, trying to think of way out of here. Blades joined me in the DoJo.

"What's eating you Leo? You seem more down than usually?" He said grabbing a bo staff to work with.

"I saw my brothers today, they don't believe it's me." I was going through my Kata working hard at what Master Splinter taught me, I felt a lone.

"I'm so sorry to hear that." Blades walked over and grabbed my arm, messing up my Kata. "Leo, don't do this to yourself. You must relax and coming in here letting anger be what guides you is what the blades in you want." I looked down, seeing I was doing as Raph would do, instade of going through coming up with plans I was asking myself questions, not finding the answers and letting my anger control me to where I needed to come somewhere to try working it out of me. I had to relax and Blades was right. "Lets go talk Leo. Maybe we can get this off your mind and let you handle it more when you're ready."

I put my swords away and walked out of the DoJo looking back, thinking of what I learned today. I had to get rid of these Blades. Blades and I went to my room, we sat and talked for hours. I had a friend here, and if I was to get free I would take him with me. I went to bed that night, more relaxed and more thinking of what had to be done. Now only to get it all done as needed.

I fought and worked for the W's for almost two years now. Thinking of ways to get away on my free time. Blades and I worked on plans. We both knew we wanted to get away, within this time I didn't see my brothers at all, and in away I didn't know if I wanted too. I also haven't seen Mark. He only seem to appear those few times, giving me somewhat of some hope. I told Blades about Mark and he said that Mark might be one of the Shapers that we're after.

It was late Oct. a lot of the kids were let lose to go cause terror on Devils night. I sat in my room, thinking of how I use to go through the streets this night with Mikey, stopping these kids. Mikey would have so much fun going after these kids. He said it was funniest to get the ones with the eggs, for they would drop the eggs all over the place and sometimes there was some we could throw back at the kids. Mikey said it was the funnest night to go out stopping crime, I could picture him out there right now. But who would Mike be paired up with. Donatello and Raphael always worked together this night. I sat looking out over the city.

It was around this time I saw something moving through the night. It looked like, but could it be. It looked like two Turtles.. was it Raphael and Donatello. I jumped up over to the window and started to Kiai over towards them.

"DONATELLO!!! RAPHAEL!!!!! OVER HERE!!!!!" I Kiai. The two Turtles turned there head and came running towards me. It wasn't Don and Raph, it was Mikey and Don. They looked up at my window.

"LEONARDO, IS THAT YOU!!!" Donatello Kiai, you could hear the joy in his voice.

"Yes Don, it's me. Come up here, but be quiet I have a story to tell you." Don and Mikey didn't waste any time coming up. You could tell they wanted to see me just as much as I wanted to see them. Once they got to the room I showed them how the bars were able be moved because of the young Turtle.

They clamed in, we all hug each other out of joy. Just than my door opened. There stood Terror. "Good Job Leonardo. Now we have the other Three turtles." Don and Mikey looked at me, than backed away.

"No! You can't touch them!" I yelled.

"You want to bet that!" Terror said, than I dropped in pain. "I can do what I want."

Don and Mikey looked at me confused. "Is this the clone or Leo?" Mikey asked as they headed towards the window.

"We have no choice but to leave him Mikey. We can't take a chance, if this is a trap and that's not Leo. Than we'll be the ones to lose this fight." Donatello said than looked at me. "If you are Leo, we're sorry, but we have to do this."

"We can't just leave him Donny!! It might be Leo!! He needs our help!!!" Mikey said as he went to run towards me, Terror seem like he was enjoying this, as if it was a show to him.

"Mikey we have to go!" Donatello said, than pulled Mikey out. I could hear Mikey's cry in the wind as they left. Terror than started to laugh.

"Oh, now we'll have to move in the morning. Your brothers know where we live." Terror smiled.

"Why didn't you try to catch them?" I asked looking Terror in the eyes.

"Because, it's funner watching them wounder about you. If I tried to take them, and you stop me they'll know it's you. But if I'm willing to let them take you, they'll have a question mark." Terror smiled and walked out. I fell to my knees in tears watching outside. My brothers will not trust me as long as Terror acts the way he does, and I knew it.

I looked at the scars left on me from my one fight with my brothers, that's when I knew my brothers wont believe me till I can get them alone. And I was going to need help.


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