Part 18,

My head was hurting, I opened my eyes to see Raph driving as fast as he could. I felt some blood come down my face. I sat up and looked behind us, there I saw another car right behind.

"What's going on Raph?"

"The Shredder found us! He's with your girlfriend in the other car!"

"Girlfriend! What are you talking about?!"

"You know! Mekoshan!" I sat up and looked behind us, he was right, there was two in the car, but who hit me out? I looked at them, I feared what was going on. But than it hit me, if we could get Shredder and Mekoshan to crash, to where they didn't get hurt, I might be able to get the Shapers to help save them, as they saved me.

I grab the wheel of the car and started to bring us off the road.

"LEO!!! WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE YOU DOING!!!!" I looked back, the car followed us, I brought the car right towards a tree. "DAMN IT LEO!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING???!!!!" I pulled into a turn, before we could hit the tree, and just as I planned .. their car went right into the tree.

"Raph, hit the breaks!!" Raph stepped on the breaks and grabbed out his sais. We ran over to the car. There was blood in the passagers seat, where Mokeshan was seating. I pulled her out of the car. She was knocked out. "Raph, I want both of them alive. See what you can do about the Shredder."

"I don't think the Shredder will be a problem about being alive." Raph said pulling out his sais. I looked over to see that Shredder jumped out of the car before it crashed. I pulled Mokeshan into the back of our car. I looked over at the Shredder, I could tell he was hurt. I pulled my swords and went towards him. Raphael looked at me...

"Leo, why are you doing going towards him?! We should get out of here!" I looked back at Raph, but I knew what I was doing. I had to take the Shredder out, it was the only way to get him to the Shapers. I got near the Shredder, than I found what made it so easy for them to crash... I could smell Shredder's breath, he was drunk.

"When will you learn Shredder, we're not easy to take on all by yourself."

"I can handle you Turtle! It's your fault these things took me, you guys are the fault of everything you freaks!!"

"Shredder, again do I have to tell you, it's Nagi that started this chain of killings.. and trouble... it's your brother. Not us!"

"Stop IT!!! IT'S NOT NAGI'S FAULT!!! IT'S YOURS.. YOU CAN'T BLAME NAGI." I knew the mader I got him right not the better chance I have at winning this fight. Shredder had two things against him right now, the blades and he was drunk. I was working to get him madder, the blades will start to burn him, than he will jump at me, he'll want to take me out. That's what I was waiting for.

"Come on Saki!!! You know Nagi was the one to start the fight! If he never went to Shen's house that night, than you'll still have him!"

"NO!!! IF YOSHI DIDN'T KILL HIM!!! IF SHEN TOOK HIM FOR THE MAN HE WAS AND LOVED HIM!!! THAN MY BROTHER WOULD BE ALIVE!!! IT'S NOT HIS FAULT." I saw it was getting to his head now, Shredder was starting to lean back... being drunk wasn't helping him. Raph came towards me... and looked over.

"What are you doing Leo?"

"I know how to take Shredder out, you see when he's drunk, he's mainly thinking about his brother. He blames us, that's why he hates us so much. He blames Hamato, and since Hamato is dead, he's going after what is left of Hamato, and that's the ones who know of him, or the one who knew him."

"Splinter?"

"That's right. So my way of taking him out right now, well you see. Look at how he can hardly stand on his feet." I looked back at Shredder. "Hey Shredder, if Nagi was such a good guy, than why was he beating Shen?!"

Shredder's eyes went red. He jumped right at me, I moved out of the way and kicked him down to the ground. "I can't believe Mokeshan let you drive while you're drunk." Holding Shredder down, he fought hard. I had to knock him out. Grabbing his neck the right way, Shredder passed out.

"Good show." I looked up, Terror was sitting on the smashed up car. "Very good show Leonardo. Even with those blades you keep so much control, but how much will you be able to take, what is going to happen when you lose it to the blades?"

"What is he talking about, Leo? What does he mean by lose it?"

"He's trying to scare you Raph, I have full control over these blades."

"You do huh? Well than, lets see how well of control do you have." Terror jumped down off the car, and walked over towards Raph. Raph backed up, it sure didn't look like Terror, only because he was shaped as his human form, but I knew it was him. "Now look at this scar on Raph here... now Raph.. where did you get that." Raphael looked up at me.

"Leo, when we got into a small fight."

"Now, has Leo ever hurt you that bad before he got the blades?"

"No." Raphael looked down. Than his eyes went on me, he was worried.. more worried than before. "But those blades can't control him! Leo's to good for that!" Terror smiled..

"Believe what you want to Turtle, but remember you guys were warned." Terror looked down at Shredder. "Trust me, I've seen others go through the blades for years, don't think that you know everything about them Leo. Oh and don't forget, your soul is ours as long as those blades are on you." Terror smiled at me. "Oh, one more thing before I go.. I want the two that was in the crash, they belong to me." He looked at Shredder and he disappeared. "Where's Mokeshan?"

"Was Mokeshan in the crash?" I went into a full act to try and save her. Raphael saw what I was up to and tried to help.

"Yea, the only one that we found after the crash was ShredHead. You mean we could have been attacked at any moment spend our time trying to get Shredder down?!" Terror smiled at us, I think he found us Funny.

"Oh, I could watch you guys forever, but I got other stuff to do." He looked towards our car and a loud cry came from the back seat. Than he looked back at us, "Nice try though."

"Aren't you going to try taking us out?" Raphael said ready for a fight, he didn't understand what was going.

"Now why would I do that, if you got your brother. Sooner or later, those blades wont let him think, than you'll get him mad... well than how should I put it." Terror looked Raphael right in his eyes. "He'll do my job for me." Than Terror shaped away. Raphael jumped back, than looked over at me... now I saw fear along with the distrust.

"Raph, don't listen to him. You know you can trust me."

"I don't know Leo, we know nothing of those blades, and until then." Raph went quiet, I knew now having full trust again was just a dream, unless I could get Master Splinter to somehow remove these Blades, but how could he, he couldn't even move. I was now alone for good.

We got back to their hideout. I figured I woud stay and help them with this fight, but than what? Do I return home with my brother, who doesn't even trust me? What if Terror is right, and the blades do break through me. My headache I had from the day before has returned... I went up to my room and lye down for a while. As the lighting kept hitting me, as hard as it hit, the more I fought it. I couldn't let these blades win.

Mark came up to my room and looked at me. He walked over, I turned away, I didn't feel like talking right now, but he had something to say.

"Leo, I know something had to have happened. Raph is full of anger and you are just plain lonely and you don't want to face it. You can talk to me, you know I won't hurt you in any way." I looked up at Mark, my eyes went down.

"I'm sorry Mark, but things are just so hard. Where do I belong these days? Raph hates me, the W's want to use me and I don't want to go to them. And Mikey is out cold, with Don left alone to take care of him. Most of this is all my fault."

"That's not true Leo, it's not your fault that Raph is scared. The W's use everyone they can get their hands on, it could happen to anyone. Mikey and Don still care for you, all of your brothers care for you. The blades are eatting at you right now, and that's not hard for them to do. You're lonely and the blades are using that against you." My eyes went closed, as a I felt a tear go down my face, what Mark just said was true, yet again.

"Thank you Mark, but how can I over come these things?"

"You can keep your hope up, and not let those blades win you over." Mark turned around and walked out of the room. He always seem to only say what he has too, than he would leave. I started to hum the Mr. Ed theme song to myself to cheer up.

"People yak yak yak all day, wasteing their time away, but Mr. Ed he never speaks unless he has something to say...oh a horse is a horse of course of course" I smiled.. that song kind of fit Mark.. all Mark would have to do is Shape into a horse. With my headache, and the thought of how mad Raph was.. this was something to lighten up my mood.

I picked up my Turtle-com, thinking of Donatello home alone with Mikey. I better call Don and let him know what's going on. I walked over to my window and looked out side, than looking back at the Turtle-com, how am I to tell Don about Master Splinter? I press a few buttons and heard the Turtle com start to beep.

"Hello?" Donatello said as he answered the Turtle com, I still didn't know what to tell him.

"Hi Donny, how's Mikey?" I should keep the topic off Splinter, till I could think of what to say. Mikey was a good topic for me, that way I wasn't the one talking. I was so lonely, I was sick, I felt it fall down on me, and it would be very hard to give bad news to Donny.

"Mikey's doing about the same since you left, I don't think he's going to live Leo. I feel real bad.. Leo what are we to do? Do you think Mikey will live?" Getting this kind of talk didn't help, he was depressed too, I had to keep off the topic of Master Splinter.

"I don't know Donny. I hope he's ok, so no movement or anything from him huh?"

"Yep, nothing Leo. I don't know about him, I'm scared Leo.. I'm really scared." I could see a tear go down Don's face, through the Turtle com.

"Don't worry Don, things should work. I hope." I went quiet, I didn't know what to say. I just wanted to cry it all out for him, but that wouldn't be like me to do. They know me as the fearless leader, little did they know I had a fear, a real strong one, and that was losing Master Splinter and my brothers.

"I hope you're right Leo. I really do, Mikey didn't deserve this, he was always such a fun loving brother... I mean, he made us laugh when everything was at the wrose point, Mikey would crack his jokes. I miss him Leo." This was getting even harder for me, I couldn't tell him right now, he had to see Master Splinter first.

"Well Don, I just thought I would call and check in with." I said, getting some points down, so this depressing talk can wait till I'm home. "I want to let you know, that I'm with Master Splinter, Raph and Ninjara. I think Master Splinter and I will be home in the next week, be ready for us."

"Really Leo? Cool! Ok, I'll get the placed cleaned up for Master Splinter. Ok, I better start cleaning.. I'll talk to you later." A smile was now across Don's face, at that moment I realized, I wasn't the only lonly one. "Good bye Leo."

"Sayonara Leo." I turned off the Turtle com, I knew what I wanted to do. I want to get Master Splinter home, where Donatello can take care of him, but than Don would need help. I thought about it for a while, than I thought of April, she could help us. I went downstairs and looked at Mark, than looked towards the room that Master Splinter is in.

Raph walked up behind me. I could tell he wanted to know what I was up too, but if I told him, he would tell me Master Splinter, isn't in any shape to be moved.

"Leo, what are you doing?"

"What? Can't I leave my room without getting questions?" I knew I had to take control again, it was the only way things might work out. Raph looked at me, he hasn't heard me talk to him like that since I got back, I've been trying to prove I'm good again.

"Leo, are you building up guts to talk back to me?" He said with a smile across his face.

"Raph, I can't hide behind a act of trying to get your trust back, when there's no reason for you not to trust me. Right now I got to get my old life back, and if you don't trust me, that's your problem, because I am free, I'm not a W anymore. And I'll never go back there. Right now there's more important stuff to think about. Like Michaelangelo and Master Splinter, both of them are down, and I don't know if they're going to live."

"It's Great to have you back Leo." Raph said. I could tell that got to him, he saw the part of the old me, that he missed. Mark looked our ways and smiled at me. I was doing this right, now to finish. I walked towards Master Splinter's room, Raph watched, but didn't stop me. I guess it helped showing the real me to him.

Going into the room I saw Master Splinter rapped up in a blanket on the bed. He didn't look good at all. I looked out of the room at Mark and an idea came to my head.

"Mark can you come here?"

"Sure." Mark came in the room and I closed the door.


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